Friday, November 9, 2012

Monsters are real, and ghosts are real too. They live inside us, and sometimes, they win.

“That's the thing about depression: A human being can survive almost anything, as long as she sees the end in sight. But depression is so insidious, and it compounds daily, that it's impossible to ever see the end. The fog is like a cage without a key.”

The last week has been hard. Really hard. Hard for me and hard on Spencer because he cant do anything to help me and it really bothers him. And Alikah can tell and that kills me.

You would think after 12 years of dealing with this it would get easier. But every single time it attacks me, it knocks me to the ground. Makes you feel like complete shit, you know? I hate it.

I am back on all my meds and hopefully will be able to make peace with myself soon. Until then I have my loves. I can be mean and resentful during these times, and I am so lucky to have someone that understands and loves me through it.
“When I looked at you, my life made sense. Even the bad things made sense. They were necessary to make you possible.”

Im sorry, Ill be back to normal updating soon. 

1 comment:

  1. I'm sorry to hear you aren't feeling like yourself. Ask for help when you need it... that is the best advice I have ever been given. Thinking of you.