Harper - 5 years old

1. What is your favorite color? Green
2. What is your favorite toy? Batman

3. What is your favorite fruit? Bananas
4. What is your favorite tv show? Angry Birds
5. What is your favorite thing to eat for lunch? Bacon
6. What is your favorite thing to wear? Shirts
7. What is your favorite game? Angry Birds
8. What is your favorite snack? Granola Bars
9. What is your favorite animal? Seahorse and Zebra (???)
10. What is your favorite song? Hey Captain Sparkles (A Minecraft video I think)
11. What is your favorite book? Batman

12. Who is your best friend? Max
13. What is your favorite cereal? Ninja Turtle cereal
14. What is your favorite thing to do outside? Play with dad
15. What is your favorite drink? Juice
16. What is your favorite holiday? Halloween!

17. What do you like to take to bed with you at night? My ba and snack, and toys
18. What do you want to be when you grow up? A fireman
19. Who is your favorite person? All of you guys
20. What is your favorite place? Chuck E Cheese (I dont think hes ever been there)

"Anything else?"
"Yes, I love dad. And I like going to chicken and french fries."

Alikah - age seven

1. What is your favorite color? Pink
2. What is your favorite toy? My iPad
3. What is your favorite fruit? Apples
4. What is your favorite tv show? Spongebob
5. What is your favorite thing to eat for lunch? Noodles
6. What is your favorite thing to wear? Dresses
7. What is your favorite game? Minecraft
8. What is your favorite snack? Crackers
9. What is your favorite animal? Kitties
10. What is your favorite song? Same Old Love - Selena Gomez
11. What is your favorite book? Junie B Jones
12. Who is your best friend? Isabel and Emma
13. What is your favorite cereal? Coco Puffs

14. What is your favorite thing to do outside? Hide N Seek

15. What is your favorite drink? Water

16. What is your favorite holiday? Christmas!

17. What do you like to take to bed with you at night? My kiki I gues

(I thought this answer was hilarious because this is Alikahs bed, always)

18. What do you want to be when you grow up? A doctor

19. Who is your favorite person? You and Dad 

20. What is your favorite place? The Kalahari. And Campbellsport. 

pottery painting with her friends

this friend loved Ellie haha

Ill post the pictures from the Dells eventually :) 

Alikah's 6th birthday

The Kalahari: Water park, arcade, bowling & bags, theme park, great food, presents, brirthday candle (lotus candle) setting off the fire alarm in our room, pictures with a kangaroo, tenzi, so much fun...

 

On the last day we had this private cabana with our own hot tub, TVs, servers, etc..

Birthday party with friends! April 25th. 

Balloon pinatas.
(These were kind of a pain in the ass to make but the kids loved them!)

 

Presents, decorating their own brownies, ice cream or both, pizza, drama, a crabby Bodhi that couldnt nap because 9 girls and 1 boy are LOUD...even louder than Bodhi is ;) 

Birthday questions are coming next!

xo 

Happy Birthday Allison

I havent allowed myself to think today. Ive been cleaning, re-organizing, and goinggoinggoing all day just to try and block out what Im scared to feel. 

To scared to think. 

To scared to accept.

I really dont think Ill ever get over it.

Allison, I love you so much, I cant remember a time that you werent there when I needed you. 

You have shoved me into admitting so many things, into talking about things I do not want to talk about in my treatment. 

I know its for me, but I do it for you. 

Id give anything for you to be here today. 

Im going back to Vegas and doing something special for your birthday.

This trip planning is all over the fucking place, but what isnt, right?

I miss you. So much. I always will. 

***I will post with updates and pictures soon. 

I feel like its getting harder and harder for me to post stuff, but I want to change that. I want to get back into it.

Bodhi - ONE Year

Height: 2 ft 7.25 inches (95%)
Weight: 25 lbs (85%)
Size 18 month clothes.

Eats: Everything. His favorites are probably crackers, corn, peas, pizza, noodles. Drinks whole milk and apple juice.

Sleeps: He shares a room with Alikah and usually goes to bed around 7 or 7:30 and sleeps for 12 hours. He naps twice a day.

Movement: Hes in LOVE with his walker and walks holding onto stuff. Crawls normally now (not an army crawl) and super fast!

Likes: Everything? His family, toys, his zoomer, Ellie or any animal, being outside, walks, laughing, chasing Alikah and Harper, eating, dancing, my laptop, glasses, kleenex and wipes, shoes, his noice lamby in his crib, his aden and anais blankets, keys, the remote...and on and on and on :)

Doesnt Like: Getting his diaper changed, getting dressed....??

Happy FIRST Birthday Bodhi

Boden - You were born too early and so fast it didnt feel real. Then I basically lived at the NICU with you. I had no idea how much I needed you but you have taught me so much. And anyone that looks at you smiles because YOUR smile just screams "LIFE IS AWESOME!" Now you are a year old and crawling and laughing at everything. Happy Happy Happy 1st Birthday baby! Somewhere over the rainbodhi - I love you so much!

"on the night you were born,

the moon smiled with such wonder

that the stars peeked in to see you

and the night wind whispered,

"Life will never be the same."

Harper's 2nd Birthday

Since I just updated on him in the last entry Im mostly going to post pictures from his party :)

Size 2T-3T clothes and size 6 diapers.
Favorite Foods - Cheetos, hot dogs, corn, peas, potatoes, poptarts, graham crackers (he calls them cookies), crackers, fruit cups....to name a few. He really just loves eating.
Favorite Book - Goodnight Moon
Favorite TV Shows - "Bob-Bob", Thomas, Sprout, Umizoomi
Favorite Toys - Kitchen, blocks, books, computers, any riding toy, his bunny
Talking - He can copy almost anything we say now.
Sleeping  - Usually naps once a day in his crib, but sleeps in his big boy bed at night.

Happy Birthday little sweet Dinosaur. You are truly one of a kind and have such a strong personality. You do whatever you want (you get that from both of your parents)/are in your own little world a lot of the time. You are absolutely hilarious and so loving and caring. You are my sonshine and I love you so absolutely much. Thank you for being you <3