let her cry

good morning

<3

Them.

I stopped blogging regularly awhile ago,

and now Im just updating to say it will probably be awhile until I start posting regularly again.

I spent November in the ICU. The first 2 weeks on life support. I dont remember a lot of it.

Since then I have been saying at my parents house.

My families lives have had to change, and were still all over the place.

We are moving soon, and once we all get settled back together maybe Ill feel like writing again.

There was and still is so much to think about.

My entire life is different now. I think differently. I think constantly. I pray every night.

I have a draft on here I write down things in when I remember them, and maybe Ill post some of that or all of it eventually.

Im just really happy to be alive.

Especially for them.

wishlist.

But never have I been a blue calm sea I have always been a storm.

Spencer's birthday on the 6th.

His brother came over and we got pizza and ice cream and hung out :) 

"She loves to watch: My brothers

She loves to eat: Salad

She loves to listen to: Me read my group books

She loves to spend time: Working on her computer

She loves to go to: Walmart

"I love you with all my heart. And you are the best mom ever. I love you so, so, so, so much."

After Grandparents Day my mom ate supper over here and taught my kids "the money game" that we always played with my (her) grandpa Joe.
The game is just holding up a dollar and dropping it and if you catch it you keep it haha...

Your supposed to catch it with your thumb and pointer fingers but they cheated just like Im sure we did :) 

Pillow fight.

Town rummage sale weekend and brat/burger fry! 

Sunday, May 3rd: 31:33 - 1.9 miles - 209 calories - Short walk alone. Sore.
Monday, May 4th: 1:09:01 - 3.6 miles - 397 calories - SO sore.
Wednesday, May 6th: 1:03:35 - 3.6 miles - 401 calories - 2 miles in it started to DOWNPOUR. We were instantly soaked and had a 2 mile trek back in a thunderstorm on a flooded path. At first I was mad but after 10 minutes (and now) I was just cracking up about it. Total disaster ahhaha.
Thursday, May 7th: 50:43 - 2.2 miles - 250 calories - Picking up Alikah from school
Friday, May 8th: 40:46 - 1.9 miles - 208 calories -Walked to store with the boys.
Wednesday, May 13th: 55:44 - 3.5 miles - 393 calories
Thursday, May 14th: 1:02:43 - 3.6 miles - 400 calories
Total: 5:33:75 - 20.5 miles - 2,258 calories

It rained quite a bit so I missed days...I have some from Saturday (rummaging...I forgot to turn my watch on until we were almost done, ughhh. And then today. But Ill use those for the next update! :) )